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In the spirit of transparency, Ive talked a fair amount of trash about Tana Mongeau.
Iquestioned her and Jake Pauls lightning-fast engagement.
(Thatsnotthe Paul brother whovlogged the dead body in Japan; its the other one.)
Their Vegas wedding was, I wrote in July of this year, peak wedding industrial complex.
And as we learned in a lengthy, emotional video Mongeau released yesterday, it was.
At least in part.
Mongeaus whole shtick for years has been authenticity.
(Keeping it 100, as she might put it.)
Which is why her most recent upload, titled the truth about everything, feels so alarming.
It sounds genuinely miserable: Im not having fun anymore.
Jake could fucking kill my whole family, I will always love him, Mongeau says at one point.
I realized I would do anything to feel this feeling forever.
She compares dating Paul to a drug.
She says their wedding was a turning point for her emotionally.
Her star continued to rise, but it had an inverse effect on her well-being.
I think the second he said, I do, to me, he was like, Now what?
I think he was also over it.
I dont blame him, but it left me clinging, trying to make this work, Mongeau says.
The pair are in anopen relationship.
I was the one green-lighting everything because I just wanted to make him happy.
After they split, Violet had accused Paul of beingemotionally abusive.
He has also been photographed out and about withErika Costell, another ex.
Mongeau skipped her and Pauls honeymoon because her father had a stroke on the night of their wedding.
(Her grandmother also died around the same time.)
That was my fault for falling for that.
When it comes to creating content, Mongeau is a pro.
Or promising that this video is just the first in a series of truth-telling installments.
The moments when shes not gossiping or talking about anything terribly salacious but just talking through her pain.
Of course, that could also all be part of the enterprise plan.
Well have to wait and see.
