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Even before she entered kindergarten,Poseactress Hailie Sahar sensed she was not who she was meant to be.
I found my truth through the ballroom scene, Sahar told Vuture.
And now you have Hailie Sahar.
The actress has appeared onTransparentandMr.
This interview has been edited and condensed for clarity.
Your transition began at a very young age.
I always felt a different way.
I thought she was just drop dead gorgeous.
I feel more of an honor and a duty to really get it right.
You auditioned forPosebut, in the end, the role of Lulu was created for you.
In the first season, you saw Lulu as kinda shallow, kinda into glam.
And shes just a typical mean girl.
But at the end of the season she wants her own house and she starts Ferocity.
I didnt see that coming.
Then, second season, you start seeing more of her emotional side, especially after Candys death.
You start seeing more of a human in Lulu.
The audience was crushed by Candys death.
Of course, it hurt my head for it to beAngelica [Ross].
We have so many scenes together.
However, I understand that this is also to be a message to world.
It was imperative that we tell this story because the world needs to understand what theyre doing to us.
And they need to understand how its affected people.
He was in the ballroom scene with me.
For me to do that scene when Candy was killed was so incredibly hard for me.
When I cried, I literally was crying.
It was like a running faucet.
So we had to keep rolling and keep doing more and more takes.
I had snot in my mouth; it was disgusting.
But it was so beautiful because I was able to spin something that was so traumatic into something beautiful.
Jazmin is This is me, Im baring it all.
Jazmins more in your face with it, shes more vulnerable and shell show you her emotions.
So theyre two totally different characters.
Lulu, I have to constantly break down.
Jazmins more like, Im here!
I think thats a lot of girls stories, whether you have a trans experience or not.
Girls just want to be empowered, and be beautiful, and be loved.
My grandfather was a pastor.
I was not able to have a moment with him as who I really am.
A lot of people in my family I havent spoken to in 14 years.
My grandfather passed away somewhere in that time so he wasnt able to see me.
The work that Im doing is meaningful in my heart as a human.
It has nothing to do with fame, money, nothing like that.
Its all about just connecting to humans and really making a difference.
The world has not seen what Im capable of yet.
